(WARNING! This is a part all about my pregnancy hormones, uh... I mean... Feelings.)
Lately I've been irritable, impatient, controlling, scatterbrained, lazy, and yet still find time to sneak in some apathy. Who is this woman?! I can't seem to find the will to clean or discipline all the time, let alone be a "fun mom". I try still and though I'm not excelling at any of those things, I haven't altogether fallen off the horse. HOWEVER, I will say that I'm pretty sure this new-ish state of mind is due to the fact that I've been stressed out more than usual. From the 26th of June up until now I've have things to prepare that usually I don't stick my nose into. On the list of offenders are:
Hosting a work party at our house for all of the employees and their families.
Hosting (expectedly) Juan's entire extended family Fourth of July family bbq. Margo's accident denied the actuality of that taking place at our house.
A very large wedding flower order in June. Luckily it was only one though.
The addition of five new piano students. I didn't even want one more lesson on my schedule, but I'm starting to get used to use it.
The looming Reflections competition at Siena's school that I'm in charge of. It's just a couple of weeks after I have my baby and I'm kinda freaking out!
A host of house projects that still need to be finished.
A stressful calling at church to attend to. (Primary is one of my fave callings but only when you have enough support. Most of the teachers ditch us without notice and we have an abnormally large population of kids with mental /emotional /social issues. It's rough every Sunday.)
Preparing Siena to be baptized. She's on the brink of becoming accountable and I'm feeling the stress of that culpability.
...and of course, having a BABY!
I don't know how to keep my sanity,the kids safe AND a clean house. It's an impossible task. Aaaaahhhh!
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