Why haven't I blogged? I've been rummaging through drawers and closets trying to get things
organized. Whew! We have a lot of junk!
The desire to organize never came when I was pregnant with Siena, but there were definitely times when I just felt like cleaning. This time around, it's very different. I hate cleaning (darn.) However, I love to organize and get the clutter OUT. There is now a compartment for almost every item of clothing Siena has- it's ridiculous, I know. We bought storage bins for all the clothes Siena has outgrown and since we have finally parted the sea of 0-3 month, 3-6 month, 6-9 month, and 9-12 month outfits, her old room is bare of any
real human remnants. There's definitely a hollow feeling when I go inside the room even though all of the room decor is still intact.
As the weeks progress, I am definitely getting bigger... and it's getting more obvious. My own father couldn't even hold back an entire "fat" comment when we were on web-cam the other day. (No worries, luckily I understand his way of playfully pointing out realities by now.) It's definitely a different pregnancy than the first--easier, in fact.
However, I am now knee-deep into the dark days they call "The Terrible Twos" with Siena. Today I cried for about an hour because Siena refused to listen, let alone obey me, and because I kept thinking of all the ways I have been a loser-mom.
I blamed the sob-fest on hormones.
And the thing that I can't decide on to-this-day is whether to be a strict, no-nonsense mom or a "loving, gentle, angelic, praising, smiling, perfect mom". I still do not know what works better with Siena. I know I should have had a game plan by now, but Oops!... another loser-mom moment.