Why haven't I blogged? I've been rummaging through drawers and closets trying to get things organized. Whew! We have a lot of junk!
The desire to organize never came when I was pregnant with Siena, but there were definitely times when I just felt like cleaning. This time around, it's very different. I hate cleaning (darn.) However, I love to organize and get the clutter OUT. There is now a compartment for almost every item of clothing Siena has- it's ridiculous, I know. We bought storage bins for all the clothes Siena has outgrown and since we have finally parted the sea of 0-3 month, 3-6 month, 6-9 month, and 9-12 month outfits, her old room is bare of any real human remnants. There's definitely a hollow feeling when I go inside the room even though all of the room decor is still intact.
As the weeks progress, I am definitely getting bigger... and it's getting more obvious. My own father couldn't even hold back an entire "fat" comment when we were on web-cam the other day. (No worries, luckily I understand his way of playfully pointing out realities by now.) It's definitely a different pregnancy than the first--easier, in fact.
However, I am now knee-deep into the dark days they call "The Terrible Twos" with Siena. Today I cried for about an hour because Siena refused to listen, let alone obey me, and because I kept thinking of all the ways I have been a loser-mom.
I blamed the sob-fest on hormones.
And the thing that I can't decide on to-this-day is whether to be a strict, no-nonsense mom or a "loving, gentle, angelic, praising, smiling, perfect mom". I still do not know what works better with Siena. I know I should have had a game plan by now, but Oops!... another loser-mom moment.
5 comments:
Stacia, You're too hard on yourself. You're a perfect mom. In a way, I know just how you feel. It's impossible to discipline Nevaeh. She throws tantrums, hits me, doesn't listen to me AT ALL. I think she thinks I'm more like her sister then her mom. At least that's the way she treats me. I have yet to find a way to discipline her and I've tried them all! They don't listen, obey, it must be a DELGADILLO thing..lol. But don't worry you're awesome and she's lucky to have you as a mom! Now, you need to post some pics of that growing belly!
*hugs!* So far the only thing that really works well with Ethan is distraction (still...). If I get mad he just acts like it's silly or a game. It can be very frustrating!
I agree that you need to post a cute belly pic! :D
Oh, and did you get my e-mail?
"Oh Mitch, Mitch you son of a ....." haha...remember when my dad used to say that to your dad. You should practice it for your next web cam meeting.
BTW, What is with our dad's brutal honesty? My dad doesn't mind pointing out the pudge on me either! But you have a better excuse than I do...I am just lazy, not preg.
You are a great mommy...and I am sure you are just adorable preg. You were with Siena...that's for sure!! I am glad this round is easier for you.
Love ya!
Post a pic of your belly!
I'm glad that you feel the same way! Only I don't have the hormones to blame it on. :) Porter started his terrible twos months early! Yuck! I hope that means that we get out of them early. I sobbed the other day because Porter wasn't listening all day and yelling back (it was a timeout day!) and then all he wanted was Daddy during bedtime. You are a great mom!! We need to remind ourselves of that, even when we have crazy kids!!!
(Can you tell I'm finally getting a chance to read blogs?)
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